We took Sam for his pre-op appointment this morning. Usually when I have to take Sam anywhere I become overwhelmed with anxiety. Lately, I have been trying to practice something new. I say a mantra over and over in my head that goes something like this: "Sam is brave, Sam is strong, I am brave, I am strong, everything will be OK, its going to be a great day."
Now I knew today's appointment wasn't going to be fun as they needed to take blood from my little man, and he did cry and scream for quite some time. To be honest though, it really wasn't that bad. We went through the motions one breath at a time and before I knew it Sam fell asleep and we came home. All the while I continued to focus on the positives and tried to reflect positive energy on whoever I needed to make contact with. It worked pretty nicely as they took us in immediately, gave us an extra hand and did not keep us longer than necessary. It takes a lot of work and energy for me to be so positive especially in these types of stressful situations so to be honest I wasn't 100% light and fluffy.
After we came out of the pre-op room we had to wait to talk to anesthesia all the while Sam was screaming and choking with his feeding tube dangling and suction machine going... Anyway, almost everyone in the waiting room was so BLATANTLY staring at us. I don't normally care when people stare at us, I'm use to it, I know they are looking at how unbelievably beautiful I am ;) . But at that moment I had my bitch hat on and I sure enough let it loose. I turned and stared back, but this one particular family continued to stare, so I said really loud "Are you enjoying the show?" I mean, come on... How rude and inappropriate can some people be? I just couldn't help myself. What can I say, I am a work in progress. So what would any of you have done if you were in my situation?